I hate meeting new people. Chinese water torture would most likely be more enjoyable for me. However, through the years, God has worked on me, showing me that the reason why I am afraid to meet people is because I am terrible prideful. I don't have the best social interactions with new people, therefore I am self concious (ie. vainfully worried about my image) and because of this pride, I hate meeting new people.
Thankfully during my first three days in Georgia God has done two things. One, He's shown me that as an adopted son of God, my only identity is found in Christ my Savior. Because of this, I don't have to carefully prune my image. Two, He's placed some great people in my life who I know are going to be great to live and work with. I've met plenty of people who love Jesus here in Atlanta and I pray that many more would come to know Him.
Jake, thank you so much for sharing this! I just started my internship, and had a lot of similar thoughts, except for me, the biggest vice is fear. fear that I won't impress people enough, or they won't like me, etc. Knowing other Jubilee Fellows have gone through this already and that it gets better helps me get through it. Thanks!
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